Can GOD be trusted in a divorce?

Aug 15th 2013:
Day 118: It has been 118 days since she told me she wanted to leave me and does not love me.


Well yesterday was a high....today is low so far. I cried to and for God last night and this morning.
I hunger for his touch in my life.
I yearn for his peace in my life.
I long for his joy in my life.
I beg for this ordeal to end and my family to come back together again, to heal, to love, to BE!
But as per the usual I must trust, wait and obey.

I cant figure out why I strive so hard to convince God that I am worthy of the honor of having my wife and kids back again.

I WANT to give up and I try BUT as soon as I see her my heart wells up inside me and love and hope boil over inside.

I cant stop telling her I love her.
I cant stop telling her she is beautiful.
I cant stop touching her.
I cant stop looking at her.
I cant stop loving her.

She give me nothing back but a smile and thank you.

I cant help but to see that God is moving in us.
The PRO's outweigh the CON's over 2 to 1 now!
God is giving me little nudges of hope from HIM...BUT I pray that I hear it from her!
I struggle to keep the spirit up.
I struggle to keep the prayers up.
I struggle with everything.

I get bitter and angry BUT I must always remember! SHE is a Jesus confessing Christian.
She has given Jesus her life and HE is guiding her thru these desicions. She is not just making them at random. Jesus is guiding her to reach a goal with her and I. I must keep reminding myself that GOD has set all this up from the beginning of time. And Gods blessing thru this will me amazing!

All I have to do is be silent, soft and loving, waiting in GOD to get his plan in place and let his will be done. Its not her...its HIM! She is ONLY doing what HE will allow her to do within his plan.
Forgive her, love him and wait!

God hates divorce and BOTH of us have asked for his will to be done.
God would NOT give us divorce IF his promise is true that he only give good and great gifts to those that love him and obey his words.
So I base my WHOLE faith in God on the fact that God only give his people what is perfect in the end.
God created the family so in his eyes the family is a pefect enity.
God hates divorce!
So if we both have invited God into our marriage to help then GOD is obligated to keep us together as that is perfect and the opposite of divorce.
If GOD lets it go to divorce then he has given us a gift he himself says he hates and THAT contridicts the charater of God himself.
So GOD has to grant our request to lead us in this situation.
And since GOD is in it it can ONLY lead to good and marriage is good and divorce is bad...and he hates it.

So based on this knowledge of the character of God, he has to put us back together. If he give us divorce instead of marriage then he has ruined Jesus's parable of "If a child asks for bread would his father give him a stone?" GOD does not give evil gifts! We have asked God for leadership in this mess and he cannot refuse according to his own laws....where 2 or 3 are gathered together in his name let their request be answered.

So nows its ALL on God. We prayed, begged, wept, pleaded and raged for his will in our lifes. Can he keep us together? Yes! WILL he keep us together? If his words in the Bible can be trusted then YES, he will. God LOVES to prove he is true to his word. Integrity pops into my mind here. I have told many people that GOD is GOING to put us back together. I TRUST that he has given me the word and the faith to pray and believe that HE will put us back together. Now its up to him to prove trustworthy.

Please Lord, dont let my words be offensive to you. I only want to prove that YOU are trustworthy to all those who dont believe in your goodness and faithfulness! I cant help but to believe that you are working diligently on putting her and I back together. The alternative is what you, in your own words, HATE!
You dont give things YOU hate to people that LOVE you!

Lord if I am wrong please let me know and correct my thinking. If my hope that you will put is back together is false please let me know. I have begged for a neon sign that we will work it out but all i get are little things that tend to give me hope that in the past proved to be false. Lord CLEARLY open my heart and mind to what you are telling me, teaching me and leading me! Give me YOUR reality, YOUR wisdom, YOUR vision for the family you have given me. Give me assurance and guidance that YOU are in control and that YOUR will is GOING to be done in the end and that YOU HATE DIVORCE!


Amen